All of this is all that I can take, and I know you aren't going to understand these demons that I face. But for everything I am, right now; I feel like, just a little girl.... I can't get away, and now I know for sure that I'm not bullet proof. I just don't know what to do with myself, all I can say is; I'm definitely in too deep.

I won't sleep tonight.

I haven't slept. Three days and I haven't slept. Not really. I can't. I won't. God knows what happens when you sleep and I refuse to be left blind.

The problem with temporary fixes, is they're temporary... Alcohol, denial and faceless strangers can only distract for so long.

So, what do I do now? Now that I'm drowning inside my own damn head.


-Shadow